It's been two days since Andrew passed. I'm not really sure how I feel at the moment. I have a sense of relief, he was in a tremendous amount of pain towards the end. Even before the end, he suffered under chemo, and the side effects. The treatments were difficult on so many levels, nothing about his cancer was easy. He fought, so hard though all the ups and downs he never wanted to give up. Even at the end he fought the whole time. In his final moments you could see his frustration, and desire to stay. But it still doesn't feel real, as if he's on a business trip and will be home soon. I'm not sure it will ever feel real.
He was surrounded by all his family, he was at home. I refused to have him at the hospital, it seemed so impersonal. And with all he went through I felt he could at least have his bed and the comfort of home.
Hospice was great, could not have done it without them.
I've been overwhelmed with support and love from so many people. Thank you to those of you who have reached out, emailed, texted and called. It means so much to know he meant so much to so many.
Karla
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